maybe i was just listening to janet jackson's "if". man, i forgot how great that song was. i had the tape and wore it out. mom got it for me from the magic mart. how long ago was that? i am listening to it again. i honestly cant get it loud enough. i have been in a mood to listen to music very loudly. loud to the point that i feel uncomfortable and am worried that someone somewhere is being offended. to the point that if we are in the car, i want to turn it up further but i am afraid that everyone within a mile will bleed from the ears. i havnt gotten it to that point but i want to. on that note, we are going to the grocery store.