well hello stranger.

lot of work going on. i feel very strange about how things are panning out and the ratio of starbucks to target. i figured i would be working mostly at starbucks and a few days at target. now it is full time at target and if i can squeeze some starbucks in there, good on me. i am going to throw out some target talk out here and talk about what is going on there. i was hired to work "hardlines" which is the least fun thing i have ever done. i walk miles and miles and straighten things. anyway, a few days ago one of the team leads took me aside and offered me a different position that will give me a regular 7a-3p schedule, every other weekend and thursdays off, and more money. of course i took it because it will be more money than i am making at starbucks right now (after almost 8 years! what the heck?!) and their health insurance is just as good. i am not leaving starbucks for good but i am going to ask what the minimum i can get by with and still stay. anyway, i feel like crap about it. like i am not being loyal or something. i dont love target yet but i feel like i may. plus it will be great to have a regular schedule. anyway. nothing really funny has happened in my life and nothing that would make a great entry. we just got back from georgia but we could not even stay a full 24 hours. we went to see john's game (they won and it was great) and jt's granddad was there. i am pretty sure he liked me or at least didnt hate me. penny----his granddad and you would get along famously! well, i have to eat and go to bed. not a good idea, i know. we have not been eating healthily the past couple of days but it really tastes great. we will get back on track tomorrow.

a great eatin' good tip

so, operation "eatin' good" has a special bonus. when i stepped into the apartment after work the whole place smelled like cantaloupe! it was really nice. most of the time i walk in and think "ugh, it smells like 4 hours ago dinner and socks in here".

update

we are a week and some days into "operation eatin' good". it is amazing how differently i feel in this short time. fruits, vegetables, no soda, no treaties....and i really don't feel like i am depriving myself. mostly because i am eating throughout the day, just not a whole cake at a time. we went to asiana day before yesterday and it was the worst idea. we didn't eat even half of what we would have in the past and felt like crap. just bloated and heavy feeling. we both agreed that if we could have gone back and eaten at home, something better for us, we would have.
work is going well. starbucks is my comfort zone and even though i am only there 2-3 days a week i enjoy it a lot moreand appreciate the fact that i know what i am doing there. target is pretty much a 5 day a weeker and it is hard work. not difficult, just hard work. the only time i really stop is when i need to find something for someone. i am grateful for that break and it most likely will give me the chance to use the walkie talkie. who doesn't love a walkie talkie? i know it fills me with a moment of joy. nothing really exciting is going on other than that. i am at starbucks tonight....7 something to close.
i think i am going to strap my skates on after the movie we are watching (fierce people starring jt's celebrity girlfriend diane lane) and skate around the laundry room. FUN!

work

so i worked at target tonight. officially. working. on the floor. when i first clocked in, i started to the back to find someone to tell me what to do. i got stopped by 3 "guests" asking me various questions, taking things apart asking and me to put them back together, to shop for them, things like that. i broke a sweat within the first 5 minutes. that was pretty much a sign of how the rest of the night was going to go. all i can say is that it is WORK. i only stopped going for about 10 minutes the whole night. i got a 15 minutes break but it took me that long to get to the sitting down place. i sat, sent jt 2 text messages, then got right back up and started working like i have never worked before. well, i am sure i am exaggerating there but it is a lot harder than i could have imagined. well, not hard.....just non stop and fast paced. which is exacting what they tell you when you start but i had no idea. when you shop there, you don't notice actually how many people are working, their walky talky chatter, constant "zoning" of the shelves, la la la. its crazy. i like it and i know i will get more comfortable there. all i know is that i will never shop the same. i will be more considerate of the people that have to clean up after my being indecisive and inconsiderate. oh i dont want this thing anymore, let me put it in a random place waaaaaaaay across the store. no more of that. you would not believe the crap we have to put back in the right spot. seriously.
anyway. i am really really really tired. jt made pancakes (and waffles......?) and coffee for me this morning. nothing better than waking up to food. we watched "kitchen nightmares" all day long, then i went to work. that is pretty much my day. and when i said we watched "kitchen nightmares" all day long i mean i watched it from 10am till i got ready to leave for work at 440pm, then i am pretty sure jt kept watching it till i got off of work. now i am watching it AGAIN. i love this show. i love love love love it. we only watch the uk version though. the american version makes me ill.
anyway, happy 4th of july! think of me when you are watching fireworks and eating great cookout food. i will be at target, sweating and moving faster than i think anyone has ever seen me move.
i promise a post that is not about work will be coming up at some point.

"you know, weird....awkward"

hard candy. this movie is making me un-com-fort-a-ble. egad, honestly. i also saw this guy in the movie "little children" a couple of days ago and that movie made me all unsettled as well. we bought the movie because it would complete our 4 for $20 and thus cheaper to own than rent almost. now i own a another movie i wont watch a second time. we have a lot of those. egad, this movie just got more awkward. plus there is no soundtrack (out blockbuster big deal guy pointed that out) so it makes me feel even more uncomfortable.
i just made chicken and dumplings. i plan to have a human sized portion and leave the rest for lunch tomorrow. possibly. we'll see. if i can even EAT while watching this movie.

meep

first official day at target. officially on the floor first day. there are some differences between the 2 jobs. at target, i watched a video, took an alcohol selling quiz, pretended to ring people up for 5 minutes, THEN i got my own register and rang people up in real life. it was honestly traumatizing. i know there are people around to help you when you need it but it is just strange to be taking care of "guests" after skimming a pamphlet and playing cashier on a dummy till. i would also like to say that i may hardly be on a register in the future, i am mostly "zoning" the aisles and talking to people. i get to put that bag of whatever that you decided you didn't want back where it goes. at any rate, it was frightening. i would like to say that everyone was really nice and patient with me. something i like about ringing is the ultimate price power. something rang up as 2.99 and the woman said "oh my, that said 1.99 on the shelf!" and i said "well well well (pushed a button or 2), now it says 1.99 here too!". that is great.
i developed a great headache that may be because of my nervousness at work or because i am trying not to eat a whole cake a day. i gave in at blockbuster and got a mr.pibb. it didnt taste that great because sodas in bottles that are not super cold never do. my "treat" has been cantaloupe and it is doing me right so far but i am sure i will get tired of it pretty soon.

the point of this post was to talk about this gem of a remark a blockbuster guy gave us. i rented "hard candy" and he was talking about liking the movie and ellen page's role. he then said that he hated juno because "(sigh, eye roll, still looking at the ceiling) it just collapsed under the weight of its own potential". oh boy. just like when they were talking about a movie being "soooo transcendent", we used the quote to describe everything. this mr pibb collapsed under the weight of its own potential. that really did happen though.

i cant think of any pictures to put up here yet but i want to include at least one a day. i have till the end of today to get it up here.